thinking...

It's been almost a year!

I haven't actually planned to come here in the Land of Smiles,,I never even imagined going abroad when I was little..

All I wanted to do before was just to fully experience how to live alone and do things on my own..

Seems like I left everything when I left the Philippines..

My first job, my friends, my family, my colleagues,,,my old life...

I came here in the Land of the Smiles unknowing what to do and what to expect..

I've realized that it's actually hard to live alone, to be with other people (co-pinoys), to work with different nationalities..but, I must say I survived..

I had my first "abroad" work after a month, I had found new friends, new family, new colleagues..and new life..

Coming here in Thailand isn't something which I have thought a lot. I planted on my mind the kind of experience I will be having..

Then why is it so hard to make a decision whether it would be time for me to leave this place..

I haven't been ready when I came here,,thus am I ready to leave???

What would make me ready
and what makes me not...